Options...

I remember Jonathan being so happy when we found out we could go to Marineland. It was the highlight of the day. It was going to be amazing. Then, the option of going to Wonderland arose... and my god, Jonathan was thrilled. But because his grandparents didn't want to go to Wonderland, we had to go back to plan A - Marineland. At this point, Jonathan was so upset, so angry at his grandparents. "But why? You were so happy to go to Marineland two hours ago!" I asked. "That was before we could go to Wonderland!"

If we didn't have options, we'd be happy with our status quo. Like I was telling my friend Louis, if he had never offered to drive me all the way to Cornwall for my driving exam, I would have be perfectly fine with taking the bus. But if he had cancelled on me, I would've felt completely terrible to have had to take the bus as a consequence.

Maybe that's why people are so afraid of change. We all get so comfortable in our little bubbles, living life as we know it. If no new nor better things presented themselves to us, if we were never aware that bigger and brighter things could happen to us, we'd be perfectly happy and content with whatever we already had.

If Frank didn't have a cellphone, he'd manage just fine with an answering machine. If Olivia didn't have a microwave, she would simply do all her cooking without one. If Julie didn't have Paul to hold the door for her, she would've been perfectly okay to open the door for herself. If John didn't have Sandra to give him a wake up call, he would wake up to the sound of his own alarm.

What's my point, you ask? Well.. Let me just say this. I know that no matter what, at the end of the day, I'm going to be just fine. If I was doing well before a certain option presented itself into my life, there's no reason why I should be devastated when that certain thing doesn't happen to work out. It's just that feeling of disapointment, that feeling of crushed hope, of failed possibilities.. one after the other... that's what's tiring, draining and discouraging.