So Happy

"I'm so happy." I've said this so many times today.

This is the moment I've been anticipating for so long. And it's here. And I'm so happy. At around 4:30pm today, I was on vacation. I was free. At last.

It's been a long semester. And I'm finally feeling a hundred thousand pounds lighter.

Here's to a fabulous summer!!!!

My God, I'm Tired

My god, I'm tired.

I just had quite a nice day though. I mean, I woke up, went for an interview, studied a tiny bit, went to a rehearsal, had really good ribs for dinner at this really cool ghetto restaurant in the south shore, went to another rehearsal.. and now here I am.

But my god, I'm tired.

And it's not even what I did today. It's just this state that I'm in right now. It's exam time. And I have one last dreaded final to take. And it does not end until this friday. I mean I know that after friday, no matter how much I do in one day, I won't be feeling like this at the end of it. I won't have this weird pressure cloud thing hanging over me.. Urgh, I just want it to be over!

Caus my god, I'm tired.

Lost in Another Gorgeous Day

Yes. Yes. Yes...

I couldn't help it. I lost another day to gorgeous weather. Well.. can't say "lost", exactly. I did have a very pleasant afternoon, sitting in the field, chatting with a friend, enjoying the sun. 'twas very nice, indeed.

It's true. I have two inevitable finals coming up on Wednesday. And no, I'm not ready yet. Well.. I covered all of Stats 2, and all I gotta do for that is keep practicing it so it becomes second nature. But I didn't start MHR at all. I mean AT ALL. Well, I did do the three readings.. but that doesn't count for much at all.

And now, I'm starving. I've litterally only had one piece of cake and two cups of tea today. Wow. No wonder I'm feeling kinda sleepy... and sooo hungry. Boil, water, boil!!!!

Alright. So here's the plan. I eat (whatever I'll manage to whip up with whatever's left in our fridge), I study Stats for the reeest of the night. And tomorrow, I'll dedicate my day to MHR. Sounds like a plan. That'll get me set for Wednesday! Oh, it better!!!

Let's just hope I don't get kidnapped by the weather again tomorrow...

I Hope You Dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get you fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making

Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Tell me who
Wants to look back on their youth and wonder
Where those years have gone

--Lee Ann Womack

Spoil Yourself A Little Bit

Everybody around me seems to be going through so much. Depression. Anxiety. Random allergies that came out of nowhere. It's quite scary, actually. Crazy what stress can do to a person. I must say, however, I'm proud that I haven't let myself get too dragged down by the negative environment. So yay me.

I know it must sound like too little to celebrate. But sometimes, we all need to find something to be proud of, to make ourselves feel happier, to remind ourselves that everything's not lost.

What can I say? What kind of advice can I give? No matter what happens, in the end, it's your life. And you're gonna have to live it however you choose to live it. But I say: life isn't about books, grades, big houses, lots of money, etc! Man! Isn't that so cliche? I know you must have heard that somewhere else already. But you know, if you are stressing yourself out to the point that your body's suffering over it, you're just as much of a cliche: working till you drop dead for things that don't even really matter.

Fine. You can do whatever you want and pursue whatever you feel is important. All I'm saying is, you gotta spoil yourself a little bit. If you treat your body with love and respect, it's gonna respond in the same loving and respectful way, as my wise little sister said. Sure. Work hard. But know that if you're doing the best you can, it's enough to reach success. There's nothing else you can do. Why waste time worrying that things might not turn out the way you want them to? Why waste energy stressing out about things over which you have no control? Instead, you can give yourself a break and sip on coffee while having a pleasant conversation with a friend. Or give yourself a bath. Go catch a movie. Pat yourself on the back. Let yourself know that you've done well to work so hard. No matter what the outcome is, you have to know that you did great, and it's important to give yourself some credit for that!

Alright. Enough out of me. I just hope at least a little bit of the above made a little bit of sense to you.

Good luck with everything, boys and girls!!

April Fools

Happy April Fools Day! Fool someone. Make both of you laugh. Just caus it's fun and silly and.. what other reason do you need?? Do it. You're gonna love it.