Thursday, March 31, 2005

Ramble Ramble Ramble

Well it's been a while since I posted one of those ramble postings where I tell you about all the interesting stuff that happened to me today and talk about a whole bunch of nothing, and well, I kinda miss that, so I'm gonna do it now. (And wow, wasn't that a huge sentence with a huge part that didn't have any punctuation in it? I hope you didn't have too much trouble reading it. It's okay. You can stop and breathe if it ever happens again during this post. And I'm sure it will.)

SO! What was interesting today? I was in a play actually. Actually, not really. I was just an overvoice. People never even got to see me. But I did make some people laugh; I could hear them over the speaker thing. Well I didn't really make them laugh. My lines did. I was a cheesy high school announcer.. Hmmmm... sound familiar?

I also started trying to find subletters for my new gorgeous apartment for this summer. If you're interested in a beautiful apartment this summer in downtown Montreal, please email me asap!! It's super cheap, only $350 including utilities! I know, I was amazed myself.

Man oh man. The weather's great. And it's just a constant reminder that this summer's going to be outstanding. I can't wait. No, honestly. I can't. This term has GOT to come to an end. I've been a pretty bad student this semester. I blame it on the fact that it is the second term of my second year, and this is when very many of us have the hardest time in their entire university career. Terribly boring classes aren't helping either. Overall, motivation is just low. And conclusion? Yes, it's all my own fault. And I just have to deal with that. But I guess we all try to find justification for our frowned upon behaviours sometimes, and now it's my turn. So one more month, and I'll stop playing the victim. Hey, I'm smiling.

Ooh. I got kicked out of Trottier, the engineering building today for getting caught taking a bite of my sandwich (I was only gonna take a couple of bites too, I swear.) and for being a management student. Apparently, we're not good enough to be in a EMPTY Trottier study room. I was kinda upset about that. So I had to walk a whole block to get back home. Oh the joys of living close to campus.

I love music. Did I ever mention that? Well, I do. I also love hugs. They make you feel so nice and warm inside. It's great.

Oooh.. I'm falling asleep. I guess I won't be finishing chapter 22 tonight. Economics. Really gotta try to keep up with the studying schedule I made myself. I've been quite good at it, actually. Yay for me.

OOOOkay. I think that's about it. Well not really. But enough rambling. Must not bore you too much. And as my little darling sister's MSN name said today: the secret of being boring is to say everything. Well, isn't that clever.

Good night, all. Hope all's fabulous.

Monday, March 28, 2005


I woke up today. I stepped outside--it was gorgeous! Yesterday, I called my friend Alexis and told him that I was going to spend all day outside because it was beautiful. And I did. And it was awesome. But today.. oh today.. it was even more beautiful.

Unfortunately, because we stayed up until 4:30am watching movies, I was exhausted when I got home. I went to do some groceries, made meself lunch.. and passed out. So it sucks that I didn't get to enjoy the lovely weather. But let me tell you what, I had an incredible nap. You know those naps you take in the summer..? That's how it felt like. I left my window open, so the breeze caressed me to sleep. If that makes any sense at all.

There are beautiful days ahead. I'm looking forward to the end of school, the start of the summer and of staying out long after the sun goes down.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Carry On

Last week was hectic. Physically, emotionally... and I guess it hit me quite hard yesterday. Just because it was the first day in a week that I didn't have to be running around all day.

But I made the effort to get better.

I gave myself today to be better. I took the day off. I gave myself a treat. I met up with my good friend Louis. We had lunch, took advantage of the nice weather, walked around downtown, had coffee, had good conversation, watched a movie.

And it worked.

When you're down, it's important to take the time to let yourself feel whatever it is you need to feel. Give yourself time to cry, to be upset. But then, get up and do something nice for yourself. Do something special to cheer yourself up.

It's much easier to let yourself stay in that gloomy state. But if you make a slight effort and decide that you're going to feel better, it'll make the world of a difference. It's too tiresome to be down.

When you're blue, give yourself the time to thoroughly feel your emotions. Don't hide them away. Deal with them and allow yourself to move on. There's so much more in store for you tomorrow. Unfortunately, you'll only be able to see all that with optimistic eyes. So shake it off, spoil yourself a little bit, and carry on.

Monday, March 21, 2005

Think Happy

Let's think of something positive. Let's talk about something nice. Remember the time when you laughed. Feel that warm fuzzy feeling in your stomach. Feel that perfect hug, that perfect kiss. Let a smile shape your lips. Forget about what's bad. Forget about the tears. Forget about the goodbyes.

Sing your favorite tunes. Look at the sunshine. Think of beautiful tomorrows.

Think happy... will ya?

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Tell Me

"Tell me it's over."
"It's over."
"Tell me it'll be okay."
"It will."
"Tell me... something.. something interesting."
"I fell in love last year. But I got my heart broken."
"It just happened."
"You must hate her, now."
"I don't."
"Why not?"
"I fell in love. It was great. It was amazing. I would never hate somebody I once loved."
"No regrets?"
"None at all."
"I would never trade what I went through with anything in the world."
"Nothing. You're just so... optimistic, I guess."
"It's not optimistic. It's just what it is."
"I'm glad you're so honest with me."
"I don't know how to be anything else."
"Tell me I don't have anything to worry about."
"You don't have anything to worry about."
"... I don't believe you."
"Why not?"
"I don't know."
"Well, I guess there's nothing I can do about that."

Monday, March 07, 2005


I am grateful for my friends. And taking the time to see them as much as you can really makes difference... a big difference.

It's been crazy. School. Rehearsals. Exams. Assignments. There's practically no time for life. But I try. And I make time. Afterall, what's life about? Relationships with the people you love. Of course.

It's not enough to know you're friends with someone. You might've been really close at some point in your life, but if you don't keep up with each other, you'll lose one another. I'll always remember when one of my friends told me: "I don't know you anymore!" It wasn't an angry reproach, or anything negative. It was just a simple statement. We hadn't seen each other in about 3 months, and when we did, it still felt like we were good friends. But when he said that, I realised, he was right. Sure, he knew who I was, he knew what kind of person I was, but he had absolutely no idea what had been going on in my life over the past few months. And surely, a lot happens in a few months.

Being friends with someone means to be in their lives. To actually have good times together. To be able to say: "Remember when..." It's not enough to see each other every other month and "update" each other over coffee. You shouldn't have to "update" your friends about anything. You just share as you go...

We're all busy people, I know. But you and I both know that we all have lots of time when we're just sitting on our bottoms, buming around, with nothing to do. That's when you'll pick up that phone and hang out with your friends. But if you can't have that kind of spontaneity with someone, if making plans with them is always a long, formal process... maybe it's not friendship.

Look around you, and see who your friends are. Take time to spend time with them. It's important. It's everything. Hold on tight to your real friends... many of us don't have the luxury to have such great people in our lives.